This is a post which probably won't really interest anyone but seen as this is MY blog I guess I can write whatever I like.
I am just feeling extremely reflective at the moment. I feel settled at the moment in my mind even though I am going through a big transition in my life. I can't hide the fact I have had battles with mental illness in the past and it is accepting this and understanding myself which has led me to be so content right now.
In the last 3 years I have really changed my life around and everything seems a whole lot brighter. I have plans for the future and I am actually looking forward to it! There were times that I seriously couldn't see further than the next day never mind years to come.
My boyfriend has been a huge part of this transition. I had already started getting myself together when I met him. Right from the first date I knew we were meant to be together... it took him a few months to twig on though! He is the most supportive, loving and patient person I have ever known and I have tested his qualities to the max and he has always believed in me and us. I in no way deserve him but I am glad he see's something in me I fail to see.
I hope I can continue to be as strong and fulfilled as I am at the moment but I am aware I could relapse at anytime. I think now I will be able to spot the signs prevent anything too drastic.
I also just wanted him to know how much I appreciate him as well as my family for all their support.
Well done and keep going. Yay for great boyfriends and the mindfulness to reflect xx
ReplyDeleteI would like to think I would be in a similar situation if I hadn't met him but he has accelerated the process! xxx
DeleteThank you for your honesty. I myself have delt with mental issues relating to depression and anxiety, and it's refreshing to see a young person being honest about what is going on in their lives. I only hope for the best and that's amazing that your boyfriend is standing beside you every step of the way:)
ReplyDeleteYeah, I mean i still have a few negative thoughts a day but I can rationalise them now. Sorry to here you have had to deal with a mental illness too but the more we talk about it the better I think!
DeleteHope you are well!
xxx